CINESPACE

Off-Hiatus

2009-11-07T03:51:00.000-08:00

Hello, what's up? It's been a while since I last posted an entry here. I've been doing Tumblr a lot because Junot, an Indonesian actor, said that my blog was cool, so, yeah, you get the point! :D

I am safe and sound. I'm content.
Just dropping by to say hey!

Oh! I also have watched This Is It.
Amazing!!!!!!!!

Ciao.

Sad day.

2009-08-29T05:57:00.000-07:00

Rest In Peace DJ A.M

Its really cool how you have cheated death so many times; the abuse, the drug addiction and the plane crash. It really described your personality as one hell of a lucky guy and how you have fought to live. But then no one's perfect and God has taken you back. I'm sure your neighbor is MJ there in Heaven. Rest in Peace, Adam Goldstein.

And happy 51st birthday, Michael Jackson!
It's a sad day; why does the good ones have to go so soon?

Hee Hee

2009-08-22T22:07:00.000-07:00

This is the art project that I've been working about. It's about Chinese Dynasty. It's a Jack.
I love school though waking up in the morning is definitely not the best part. You have to have something or someone to make you motivated to go to school. Well, I have something... and someone :). That's the best part. I think school is heaven on earth; if only for cute boys, assignments and iced tea. I don't have anything to tell here. My school life is aight, my family is quite aight too though my love life is a bit inconstant. Boys are very confusing. Especially him. I have to admit that I had a rocky friendship for the last 2 weeks but it was a stupid reason to fuss about, I'm glad that it's over. You have no idea how hard it is to write that paragraph. I guess I'm really not into writing these days. Grr, what happened to me?

I've been painting myself with charcoal and bold colored pens, trying to make a calligraphy which ends up really messy. It must be really cool to have a tattoo; I know I have always wanted one. I want a red bow like the one in the picture, though I want it on my back not on my hand. I want the word 'Meteor' on my hand; that'll be dedicated for MJ because I'm inspired by what Angelica Huston had said about MJ, and I always want to think about him that way. The last one I want is the word 'Invictus' its based on this poem by William Henley; maybe I'll post the poem later. Invictus means invincible, you know how I'm in love with that word.

Yes, this is the actual tissue... well more like handful of cottons that I use for my weepy tears. That's what's left of MJ in me, friggin fucking tears. Can't let him go. Naya, Adria, Avi, Nadhira and I love him too much. Of course the whole world too! :D

Promise me, Madrid.

2009-07-26T07:15:00.000-07:00

BALI.

Timetravel Potato

2009-07-26T06:26:00.000-07:00

Highschool baby. Yes, I'm officially a highschool student. It feels weird wearing this new uniform because somehow you feel so high, superior and just... different. The two weeks of highschool was not bad. I don't get why people have been complaining about it all the time because to me it's fine. Yes, there were homeworks and there will be homeworks, that's normal. We're just gonna have to get used to it because it'll be our daily routine. I'm gonna start loving highschool more now.

My bestfriends and I with our highschool uniform on :D
I have found new creations of art over the summer. Much more. And I love breathing it in and I love taking a sigh of every pictures and every colors.

I have lost the urge to write. And I hate it when I do that. Maybe because I'm feeling unnatural right now and still so upset from inside.

P.S,
Me duele siempre que piense de él ido. ¿Cómo haga perdiendo un icono le hace se siente como perder una familia?
¿Cómo hizo él que a personas? ¿Cómo hizo él que a mí?

Hats off to the King of Pop.

2009-07-02T04:30:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry, this shit is just too amazing.

Forever

2009-06-30T07:58:00.001-07:00

Michael Joseph Jackson.
He may be gone now but his music will never die. He's just that invincible.

Sweet dreams, Michael. We'll love you forever, that's a promise. Thankyou, you are the soundtrack of my life now, Michael Jackson.
"He was a meteor; his flame burned incredibly bright, and not for long but mightily" - Angelica Huston

Twenty Four.

2009-06-18T01:39:00.000-07:00

LAST TRIP: PUNCAK.
Melvin and Andrew's Villa.

Fox Tail

2009-06-18T01:23:00.000-07:00

PROM.
Grand Kemang Hotel.

Clasixx Killin It

2009-06-15T01:49:00.000-07:00

LAST DAY OF SCHOOL.
Sekolah Global Jaya.

It's called growing up, Mother! Get used to it.

2009-06-11T23:21:00.000-07:00

Do you think you are pregnant?

You have to get a piercing, what do you get?
probably nose. nothing too extravagant or slaggy

Do you miss anyone?
sure. but i'm not sure who.

When is the last time someone of the opposite sex gave you a hug?
2 days ago i think.

Are your friends taller than you?
no, just the average.

What were you doing this morning at 5:30?
clicking snooze on my alarm.

Was the first person you talked to today male or female?
female. my mum -.-

Are you picky about who you give your number to?
eh, i don't really give out my number.

Could you go a month without cursing?
hell no.

You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life, what is it?
i believe i've answered this. water!

What are you listening to?
your guardian angel by the red jumpsuit apparatus, acoustic version

Anything interesting happen this week?
yeah haha sb!

Did you sing at all today?
well, secretly.

Favorite color?
black and dark blue.

Is it easy to make you smile?
most always.

Are you starting to realize anything?
yeah. im not gonna tell you what :)

One thing you're looking forward to?
SATS & BALI & SINGAPORE

Have your friends ever randomly stopped by your house?
mhm they're starting to.

If you could have something right now, what would it be?
GOOD FUCKING GRADES.

If you're being extremely quiet what does it mean?
that i dont feel well or deep down i am mad jealous and regretful, combined.

Does anyone call you babe?
handful of my girlies do.

What was the first thing you thought this morning?
'mhm... ADRIA'S BIRTHDAY!' lol

Do you believe in second chances?
i believe in x1000 chances.

Is there anyone on your mind right now?
there's always someone/something on my mind.

What is your favorite TV show?
Friends, hands down.

Is there any food you're craving?
not really.

Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?
nah, i'm content.

Do you drink coffee?
hate that stufff.

What made you sad today?
my mum can't even speak to me nicely.

Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?
not that i can think of.

Are you a cuddler?
huge one.

What were you doing at 7am this morning?
still SLEEPING LIKE A COW.

Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them?
yeah, have lots of em.

Mattress Superstore

2009-05-30T22:42:00.000-07:00

vacation randy.

I'd be happy to be in one of these places.
All photos are from Flickr.com

Australia trip is back on, my dad just decided to go because he's been missing my brother alot of times. Don't get me wrong, so do I. But my mum is a bit handful because she's reluctant to go. But if that's cancelled, my dad also planned another trip to Singapore, that'll be okay, there'll be shitloads of toys and clothes that money can offer ;) And after going to one of these, hopefully I can go to Bali with my friends. I can picture it in my head now, oh I am so tight up, I always set the bars too high.

Anaheim Avalon

2009-05-30T22:01:00.000-07:00

vacation randy.
the end is not near, it's here. maybe a lil bit dramatic but that says well about school. school is finally over, no more exams and shitty assignments. all i could care about is prom now and how am i going to spend my holiday. i can't be a kook this year. i have to know how to plan things out but you know me, eventually it'll not work out. but my dad had offered himself to be a sponsor of my vacation this summer so all my plans will come true afterall. i kept forgetting about the result of UAN but that aint gonna stop me from living my vacation before the result comes :3

i don't say a lot when im shopping and i don't really search for each items from one table to another, i look past around and when something catches my eye i'll consider it. but these things had already caught my eyes and i was not even there to begin with so it'll be worth it.

1) Balenciaga City bag. 2) Hello Kitty Glam Ring. 3) Cotton Slouch Beret. 4) Cuffed Denim Short

COOKIE

2009-05-28T22:37:00.000-07:00

How are you, tough cookie?
Ican, Grace, Michael and I are settling Tuesday for some baking time. The taste was not that bad but the texture turned out to be man phallic PANCAKES, not cookies. Nah I'm just joking about the man phallic, well lets just say the shape turned out very messy, the texture was so soft that it breaks easily and there was a squared shape. It was a really fun day, lots of laughs and lots of ENVIES. Ican has incredible collection of music records, like bob dylan, the hollies, skeeter davis, abba, eric clapton, ringgo starr, NO! she has really cool things in her room.

Rudie can't fail

2009-05-24T20:36:00.000-07:00

Why are they so scenic?

I've got the TRL photobooth photos! My favorite one has to be Ben Affleck and Josh Duhamel with Topher Grace. Believe it or not I haven't tried photobooth like that one. I'm dying to get one of those. They have one here but not the same qualities. Shame on me for being pathetic that I actually tried posing with a curtain behind me, and I downloaded the photobooth templates and edited it. Not gonna show it here. Oh yeah and feel free to judge me :p

This week was okay. I was definitely very relaxed this week since the assignments weren't that heavy but I still have to catch up with science fair project. It's so lame but enjoyable; I'm gonna bake cookies, obviously has nothing to do with science but the web says its categorized as food science so don't complain and jack off, lol. You know what I really want right now? I just want to jet off to Singapore where I can spend every dime on clothes and Japanese cartoon shits. I just want to get out of Jakarta, it's a bit overwhelming here sometimes. Also I've planned my summer going to Bali with my friends too, that I'm excited. My family and I was supposed to go to Australia to visit my brother but my mom's being a cheap-a-saurus.

Out of context I never meant to start a war but seeing you taking sides and lie to my face makes me want to high five your face. But that doesn't make me a better person either. So I just wish you'd change.

P.S: Sami Hyppia, I wish you a life time happiness and you'll always be known as Liverpool no 4 legend.

Cyrus Team

2009-05-11T07:21:00.000-07:00

BECAUSE I JUST LOVE MILEY SHE'S SO RAD
Selena and Demi are like the two bestfriends who can't stand on their own feet, why do you like them? lol owned

Gotta finish the downloading so I can sleep tight...

Sugar hangover

2009-05-10T06:41:00.000-07:00

My Bloody Valentine was weird. They're trying to be mysterious about who's the real killer in this movie which makes the story line even more confusing. I carried a lot of weight yesterday at dinner because Amigos just serves quality food. I ate four potato skins (without eating the potato), cheese burger, one horrible iced lemon tea and 2 cokes. We played cards and during which the sugar rush just kicked in really hard. We were too tired of laughing and eating. We nearly dozed off. But it was a blast, very worth it. How was your night?

There was a fight at school this week. It was historical. The year 9 grade is the worst grade ever. We just don't know how to control everything, either that's part of the recovering or we're just too blind childish.
Yes, we do hate you, we just don't know how to tell you. (This one is totally out of the context) And I'm gonna flaunt this news to everybody, I just tweeted Heidi Montag and she friggin replied me!! oh for crying out loud

Jason Bourne

2009-05-02T08:14:00.000-07:00

What a long and stuffed week. I finally have done the national exams, 6 down and only 2 more to go. I gained a little weight this week, with all the studying and PMS; during which I ate a little too much than I ordinarily would. I was sick and beyond optimistic during the exam week. And my phone rang out The Black Keys during the test, it was my mom, she's just impossible. Thank God it's done and I cannot wait to relax for the whole month. I cant wait to go back to the ordinary school time and gets excited for everything. Pray for the results, people. Hope I'll pass-- that's just compulsory.

I totally shut down laptop, movies and soccer during the exam week and that is shocking for me. But this week I did watch X-Men Origins: The Wolverine; Hugh Jackman is so great in it and blimey to Ryan Reynolds and Daniel Henney.

Today I went out to Senayan City with Adria, Serena and Javier. We watched Nicolas Cage's latest movie, Knowing. It was really good, I really liked it and kind of impossible too. There are 3 blonde guys, same ones, who looks like a dead meat but is in fact are angels. So they're there to pick up 2 kids, one boy and one girl, and save them from the end of the world. Supposedly, these two kids are Adam and Eve of another new era. It's kind of sad and confusing at the same time.

I think I'm going to write a story again, it's been so long and I have ideas. Ican always reminds me to not erase any stories I've made but I never listened.

mhm.

2009-05-02T07:56:00.000-07:00

tell us, what were you named after?
cindy crawford. my dad was a big fan.
go ahead, cough and laugh it up.

describe yourself.
whoever made this survey is not creative -_-

what are your hobbies?
writing, taking pictures, watching gazillion movies, eating, surfing the websites, sleeping sleeping sleeping.

tell us, a little about where you live?
everything here is surrounded by malls. that's the obvious one.

do you like living where you're living?
sometimes i just wanna get out from here to a place where there's beach and old buildings, in the countryside. is that possible?

what movie have you watched recently?
X-Men Origins: Wolverine, Angus Thongs and the Perfect Snogging and Knowing.

what kind of movie do you want to be in?
actions movies or smart movies like national treasure or 21.

lastly, what car do you want?
ASTON MARTIN

So basically I first seen it on Allysha's page but then it wind up on Ican's so I might as well copy it.

Brittany Snow

2009-04-23T05:50:00.000-07:00

Be honest, who have you texted today?
serena and valentina.

This time last year, can you remember who you liked?
oh! >_<

What is something that you realized today?
it's hard to forget someone who's really a sex god

Two days from now this time, where will you be?
my house, studying studying studying.

Do you think anyone has feelings for you?
uhm. uhm. >_<

Who was the first person you talked to today?
my maid.

How late did you stay up last night?
one or so.

Do you smoke weed everyday?
ha, hell yeah.

Could you go a month without cursing?
can't bet on it.

Have you ever ridden a horse?
yes. i want to go on one again!

You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life, what is it?
water.

Are you anything like you were at this point last year?
nope. today i am more open and optimistic, i guess. and a bit of mental.
last year was... immature, i'd say.

Have you lost contact with someone you wish you didn't?
mhm i'd say yes a year ago but now that she's a bitch i haven't lost anyone.

Who are your favorite people to talk to when you’re down?
i always, always talk to ican, valentina and adria when i'm down.

When's the last time you talked with the opposite sex on the phone?
yesterday.

What do you miss?
somewhere i haven't been to. actually, china trip 4 years ago.. damn

Do you think you are a good person?
yes.

Do you miss the way things used to be?
sometimes, but i don't wish to do it all over again.

Would you ever live with anyone on your top friends?
yes!

Have you held hands with anyone in the past 24 hours?
yeah.

Are you a patient person?
some say yes, some say no.

Where is your significant other at the moment?
no existing 'significant other' at the moment.

Are you seeing anyone right now?
uhm.............. nope

Do you think you can last in a relationship for 3 months?
i could. i'll try to be the perfect nutter for every boy i like :p

Are you afraid of death/dying?
sometimes. well yeah.

How's your heart lately?
just fine, and tickly at times.

When was the last time you cried?
this afternoon at lunch. i choked.

If you're being extremely quiet what’s it mean?
i drift off into thoughts too deep. paranoia, same damn thing never sleeps.

Have you ever had a really big fight with a best friend?
uh huh. not really, just big and rare.

Think a lot before you fall asleep?
yes, i try to piss it away by watching f.r.i.e.n.d.s

Have you ever given a random person your number?
yeah lol

What’s your favorite thing to have on your bed?
my blanket and my pillow.

Who would be the first person to know if you got pregnant?
probably who ever got me pregnant. or my best friend

What is something you just don’t understand?
screamo music, come on. and bangun ruang, that's math.

Do you care what others think about you?
yes. but i love not caring and i'm still working on that.

What do you look forward to in the next 3 months?
prom, australia, year 10.

Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
my cousin.

Do you enjoy late night phone conversations?
yes, but it really depends on who. if it's one of my bestfriend or some boy i like then yeah but if its one of my not so close cousins, then no. i really do prefer late night text messages.

What are you doing tomorrow?
school, studying. who knows...

p.s, i'm having this national exam on monday until thursday.
please pray for me so i can pull it off and can pass with good grades, big time.

the amazing liverpool

2009-04-15T02:25:00.000-07:00

they lost to aggregate last night so chelsea won the game. last night's score was 4-4 so the total score was 7-5 on aggregate. i was really, really pissed when liverpool lost the game but as i saw the highlights, liverpool was on fire and their comebacks after lampard made the 3rd goal just silenced every chelsea's fans. applaud for liverpool for their heroic effort because steven gerrard didn't play last night. they played with a super quality that isn't erased in any way. maybe champions league isn't in for liverpool because liverpool has too many of 'em; and now i believe liverpool can fire up the arsenal game next tuesday and win the english premier league.

liverpool bowed out of the champions league with their heads held high.

future-study-future

2009-04-13T04:37:00.000-07:00

i had a long weekend and i pretty much spent it for studyin, getting tutored, went to the movies with mates and watched the crappiest yet very scary movie called 'mati suri'; seriously we were scared shitless, and then i went to my grandfather's cemeteries and spent some quality time with my family. i had the best time this weekend and today was pretty good too, what really scares me is just UAN is coming up. i really am not eager to start studying and i will have another tryouts this thursday and friday. bollocks. the start of 2009 was not that bad, it was actually pretty good. save the humiliation later. i can't wait for UAN to end and oh so can't wait for the future. art festival is coming up, i'm playing kolintang and i'll play 3 songs, can't wait for that too.

i stole this from ican

2009-04-09T07:42:00.000-07:00

5 things you do when you are...
BORED?
1. watch movies
2. web surfing
3. write an entry
4. editing photos
5. sleep

PISSED?
1. dump it all on me
2. think about it over and over again
3. sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep
4. listen to songs with max volume
5. punch things

TRYING TO CALM YOURSELF DOWN?
1. watch f.r.i.e.n.d.s
2. listening to bunch of songs
3. watch the hills
4. think about the worse thing and imagine how i'd cope with it
and then apply it to the reality. weird, i know.
5. watch movies bloopers, jennifer aniston-brad pitt
and liverpool greatest moments.

HEARTBROKEN?
1. bitch about it to my friends
2. listening to sad songs
3. being like the most heartbroken kid in the world
4. chasing attention
5. cry.

CRUSHING ON SOMEONE?
1. try anything to get those butterfies yapping in my stomach again.
2. constantly checking texts/email etc.
3. trying to be cool about it.
4. get all jealous about stupid shitty stuff
5. do something he will notice

EXTREMELY HAPPY?
1. tell people about it
2. proud of everything
3. remember it all the time
4. be super friendly
5. be super helpful

lesson learned

2009-04-04T08:02:00.000-07:00

i just got so hurt. really hurt. and sometimes when that happens,something inside just shuts off. it's like those people knows how to find me inside my own body and swim to find the red button. it's like a radar.
- Lauren Conrad

everybody's using it so: twitter.com/cindyjulia
chocolate milk and liverpool vs fulham is otw. goodnight

I wanna travel

2009-03-30T07:00:00.000-07:00

What is the last thing you stole from a store?
None of yo business, foo.

What are you looking forward to in the next 4 days?
Just life at school. And sleepover!

Have you ever gone a whole day without eating?
No, can't stand it.

What kind of phone do you have?
Blackberry Curve 8900

How do you act when you drink?
No alcohol for me

What is the first thing you would do if you won the lottery?
Piss it all away :D

How about when your high?
Never have been and never will be.

What do you spend all your spare time doing?
Internet and watching

Have you ever started drama on purpose?
Uhm, nope. Just unintentionally.

Do you want to be single?
Sure. Maybe. No

How often do you skip classes or school?
Mhm, not that often.

Are your parents still together?
Yeah.

Are you wearing socks?
Nope

Have you ever been high or drunk during school/work?
Nah.

Do you meet new people often?
Sure.

Do you know your neighbors?
My neighbors are my family, literally.

Last time you ate?
Half hour ago.

Longest time you were ever grounded?
I've never been grounded. My parents did told me that I'm grounded
but I never really do it.

Are you annoyed with anyone in your house?
My mom, I guess.

Have you ever made out with two people in one night?
No way.

If you could, would you be Brittney Spears for a day?
Haha, no thanks.

Would you marry someone you didn't love if paid 10 thousand dollars?
Mhm... let me get back to you on that.

Have you ever been lost?
Kind of.

What's the most embarrassing thing to ever happen to you?
Never experienced one huge social humiliating, just things like slips,
farts or just pronounces wrong.

Not a good enough reason, dear.

2009-03-29T07:28:00.001-07:00

so shy so shy so shy so shy so shy

Scary thought

2009-03-23T06:53:00.001-07:00

i can't ever imagine having a terminal damage inside any organs or another cause of internal bleeding. i've been hearing many death news. a girl that my friend knew died because of this common disease that we have in this country, my private tutor just told me that one of the student in her university died because he was struck by lightning, and a woman was found dead in the emergency stairway of a new mall called pacific place. so many lives are taken away and speaking of, the world's biggest news yet was the natasha richardson's death and jade goody's; one because of an internal bleeding in her brain and one because of cancer.

by the way, you're cute, jack tweed.

the weather condition in this town is not subtle, it's not clear. once it's sunny and the heat is crucial but then at night it starts pouring rain and the thunder just won't stop. global warming kills.

another plane accident just happened in japan. i don't know the details of this accident yet it did happen. makes you think right? i don't want to scare people off or jetting people's minds into this or piling up people's anxieties but as my dad says total awareness is needed these days, you can't escape it when it's happening. i hope this issue catches your attention because that's what i'm trying to do for myself and of course i hope you will.

Ages ago

2009-03-21T22:26:00.000-07:00

i kind of love this photo because it's so old and it feels dead somehow because i never remembered that my cousin and i were that close, lol. that's my cousin joshua, he's in Netherlands now. my aunt just posted this photo and i'm glad that she did. this is so cute. i was so different back then, scary.

Liverpool vs Manchester United

2009-03-14T07:43:00.000-07:00

atta-team! you were killing them right off. it was dope. didn't regret canceling all my plans. fabio aurelio was hardcore, fernando torres, as usual, bombed it and steven gerrard was the heartbeat of the game. 4-1, history is bull, 2009 is liverpool all the way. sorry rooney, no wonder you've always hated liverpool. quite a champion aren't they? i can't stand my cockiness, i'm just too happy and proud. but then again, what's a day without any joyful occasions? my mom killed my mood already. she ruins everything

Dream like shit, I just might get it.

2009-03-13T22:58:00.000-07:00

yet until now i've decided to be as rich as possible and find a house with a pool and a private beach in front of it. i need to find a $$$ hubby or boyfriend. life's good.

Australia is his now

2009-03-12T08:03:00.001-07:00

i'm in a rut, i'm missing my brother. it's perfectly strange for me because i have never missed my brother this much. while my mother is wanting to adopt another baby just because she couldn't get over the fact that she had to leave my brother in australia. my mother is going through some stage where she spits out every bad words and blames everyone for any flaws just because she misses my brother so much. and that's where her obsessiveness in cleaning is kicking in.

i rambled on every quizzes in quizilla and the results were not that bad. unfortunately, i only have 12 crushes atm, i'm a VERY shy person, my IQ is below 127, i am almost there to be a girlfriend material and some other things i try to forget.

Erica Marsh

2009-03-10T05:11:00.000-07:00

sometimes, you just know. and sometimes, that's all you need.

this is the final straw. i want you to be with me."

studying imagining watching staring breathing loving capturing writing studying eating eating eating walking talking gossiping gossiping gossiping gossiping listening listening listening laughing laughing loving loving loving loving.

that's what i've been doing and it makes me happy every second of the way.

i am not in the mood to rekindle the past, i am so in for the present and the future.

i love nenet and barri. i don't know why i said that.

Patrick, shut up!

2009-02-27T07:10:00.000-08:00

've never been so pissed and so happy at the same time and both happened earlier these days. i can say it was a pretty good week though i had tryouts and it was not the highlight of the week. ia studied full time this week, part of it because of the tryouts. i've made my peace with those fags-- well not really. i can't say they're fags because i don't even know them but from the stories i've heard, i'm grateful that i don't know them and i don't intend to right now.

i'm so happy for liverpool win against real madrid. i really like real madrid but raul is the one i despised the most. it's almost impossible that they could won without gerrard, said the air head douche bag, patrick. he's just a presenter and he talks like an alkie. he can't even score a kick but sure he talks. he should be commodist broker, that job will turn him quiet.

i believe what i want to believe. this week i believed that monday will be a good day, tuesday will be a bad day, wednesday will be a good and so on so on, and it actually did.i always believe in that kind of thing because sometimes it really happens. my friends thinks i'm nuts because you can't really tarot-card your days like that. speaking of tarot card, i really want to try one my own! somehow i believe in horoscopes because most of it seems true and actually happens, but my mom disapproves it. to sum up i really like this week because i was always in a good mood, well almost always but hey it was an improvement from last week. last week was not actually bad, it was just so dull, sometimes drama is needed. wow it sounds so pathetic

2009-02-24T04:52:00.001-08:00

very, very cute.

Bitch

2009-02-23T02:26:00.000-08:00

i don't feel well. love, crush or that kind is a bitch.

i have study to do. i'm trying this new way of studying and that is by listening to music. wonder if i'm that kind of person who can study with songs accompanying me. hola pythagoras!

i'm craving the muse and mute math. i can't ever really see matthew bellamy as that kind of person that makes every girls go all mariah on him. i just think that he's an extraordinaire and he's so soulful. i almost love all of his songs.

p.s.

girl, i don't hate you, i just don't care for you.

go like! none of my business and don't fuss mine.

Marley and Vicky

2009-02-22T00:54:00.000-08:00

yesterday me and my dad went to a dvd store and bought lots of good movies. we picked almost all brand new movies, even if the quality and the texts are not good enough we still bought it because we're parched for some movies. last night, i finished watching marley and me & vicky christina barcelona. both movies made me cry, i suggest you to see it.

i want to watch the curious case of benjamin button,

it's like i'm the only person who haven't watched it.

i'm also excited for the oscars!

I'm a giddy-up

2009-02-16T05:09:00.000-08:00

they've been gone for 3 days and i'm missing them already. especially when my mother comes back this sunday without someone who accompanied her before, my brother. yep, he's definitely staying in melbourne, australia. i can't see him for the next four months. it's so weird, when he was here, i didn't take any advantage of the time but when he's gone it feels nothing other than an empty room. well, gotta do what you gotta do.

my brother and i at the airport.

school have been treating me as well as before. of course with extra lessons and math courses, life couldn't be any better than that. my week will be so full. i really have to study all the time but of course i break that rule from time to time. but despite having so many frustrating times at school, i also have that extra bag of giddiness whenever it's before school, at break, at lunch or after school; i don't why and how, that's just how it goes.

there's going to be swimming carnival on wednesday this week.

just to think my life couldn't get any better than tryouts and extra lessons.

blimey...

all i want is a cute boy to eat breakfast with.

2009-02-06T07:15:00.000-08:00

Wrap your arms around me, come a little closer

Stumble in the twilight, and fell onto the floor
Loving Mona Lisa dreaming of the free world
Lipstick on the nightstand and demons at the door

7 things

2009-02-05T07:00:00.000-08:00

1st. my first tryout grades are horrendous. i just don't get it

2nd. rumors have been killing my mind, it's not good because i was never the one to worry about rumors.

3rd. there are few people who've made me so insecure and intense and paranoid all the time. i always think about them constantly, like every fucking minute. it's so sick

4th. i got curly hair now. i got bad first impressions on it. my friends are getting used to it. i don't care lads, i love it.

5th. math is master minding me. i hope they succeed.

6th. liverpool defeated chelsea with 2 goals from fernando torres. but liverpool had lost to everton so they're outta FA cup.

7. i secretly farted in my bahasa indonesia class.

step up

2009-01-28T06:20:00.000-08:00

something's changed today. everything seems very different. everyone was a bit coy and nothing caught my eye. i was so excited to see the boy but he kinda.... ran away? i don't know. he was just distant and he's damn unpredictable. i hate that in a boy.

today i had a little photo session with adria. it was all in black and white; katya took a good role as the photographer. it went a little overboard. skin showing, spit splattering and massive giggles. uh, what else is new? (:

i hope tomorrow will be different and i hope problems are solved.

liverpool vs wigan is starting, fingers crossed!

if you're my best friend, i need you to be honest with me and ask me what's the deal straight up.

i'd feel really bad and pissed if i'd heard it from someone else.

i miss him

2009-01-25T06:40:00.000-08:00

what else is new?

these women are to die for

liverpool vs everton

2009-01-20T07:15:00.001-08:00

they didn't win last night. they fell back to draw. i'm kind of disappointed-- and actually surprised that they didn't win. tough luck i guess. i just want the old liverpool back where they beat the crap outta newcastle earlier in december'08. 5-1! i want that team spirit, i want that game plan back. next game on premier league is still on wednesday. they'll be up against wigan athletic. and i'm expecting a skill performance to kill. i want another torres show!

p.s; i am not letting daniel agger to move to ac milan.

rough patch

2009-01-09T19:52:00.000-08:00

i've been wearing a rough patch because this week really throws me off out of the curb. my grandma is still lying in the hospital's bed and now my uncle caught demam berdarah. fucko mosquitoes. and this week i did those extra lessons for uan preparations and i did the first tryout yesterday; not good enough. i've been tired all day this week, i slept early and woke up late and i had to take fresher look on things like for example biology, physic and math.

I am against nature. I don't dig nature at all. I think nature is very unnatural. I think the truly natural things are dreams, which nature can't touch with decay.

-bob dylan

2009

2009-01-05T03:35:00.000-08:00

How to act like a total slut?

It's so easy. Just be yourself.

anyways, so far 2009 has been a la-la. nothing special.

my grandmother had a heart attack.

i'm not in a good mood these days.

i need some kool-aid

31st

2008-12-30T22:09:00.000-08:00

there were white wines, cigarettes and even a tragic story yesterday. my dad really smelled like an ass-tray before we left my grandpa's house. last night was fun, i had a good bonding with my family! last week-end was fun too, my family and i went to segarra until 9pm, i had a blast. during which, i realized that my dad can't really keep his promise, lesson learned.

i want a pug!

secret #1

2008-12-21T06:51:00.000-08:00

you somehow interpret the wrong way,

you somehow think you're better than her.

i'd like that confidence some day.

Richie-Madden foundation!

2008-12-09T01:29:00.000-08:00

nicole richie and joel madden co-founded this organization.

i support them, please do join!

ISSUES

2008-12-04T01:50:00.000-08:00

friends problems, boys problems, school problems, same old same old. never gets better these days.

i have this issue where i lock everything i see so i kind of remember everything; even little things. and i have this issue of forgetting what i shouldn't and remembering what i shouldn't.

i have stack of issues, i'm so full of it.

i have friends problem; that girl doesn't know how to act properly and doesn't know how to make it right. and the other girl doesn't know how to joke and doesn't know how to make people feel good in every situation, and that's lame, aye.

i have boy problems; that boy is so shy i can't stand it.

i have skin problems; i bought this skin care and now my skin is creating ripple. help

2008-11-18T01:05:00.000-08:00

www.flickr.com/geekmanticore

please check out my flickr. i'm done with deviant art

yey! the exams are finally over. today was science and humanities & i think i nailed it! i am watching boys don't cry starring hilary swank and i loved her in it. today has been good so far, nothing too difficult to think about. i saw him he looked cute today , ta-da ta-da.